Growing pains in my 40’s

I feel a lot happier today! After a really long time, it feels like a weight is lifted! All it took was a change in outlook. Getting back into running helped clear the fog and remind me that I am more than just a lonely woman! It made me remember all that I have, thatContinue reading “Growing pains in my 40’s”

My Year of Firsts!

Woke up to the realisation that today marks one year of being single for me! Life has been absolutely unpredictable, and I have kept my seatbelt on for the ride! Here are some of my firsts: Learned to live alone 🤟🏽 Wept so much my soul ached and my bones hurt 🎭 Improved my runningContinue reading “My Year of Firsts!”

The thoughts in my head are just as tumultuous as the storm unfolding out there!

Being free, and feeling free are two different things. I think of this today as I lay in bed, watching a feral storm brew outside, feeling so constricted in my own skin! This holiday period was the most challenging time of the year, and while the rest of Victoria enjoyed restrictions free holidays, I wasContinue reading “The thoughts in my head are just as tumultuous as the storm unfolding out there!”

What do I need to feel whole?

Swing on swings with my kids Lay down on the decking and imagine shapes of clouds as they morph from a horse into a sea dragon into a bowl of spaghetti in the blue sauce ⛅️ Run in the rain 🏃🏽‍♀️ If I had to be honest I think I need to be loved andContinue reading “What do I need to feel whole?”

People want to wine’o’clocks with me, and I just want to run!

I am blessed to have so many lovely friends, that I always have someone or the other checking on me to see how I am going through this Iso! Really, I am the luckiest woman ever, seeing as my village is made up of all these lovely, thoughtful, kind people. Thank you all, for alwaysContinue reading “People want to wine’o’clocks with me, and I just want to run!”

What’s in a name?

Conforming to social norms always makes me claustrophobic and makes me feel like I am a potato sitting in a sack with all the other potatoes! Don’t get me wrong, I love potatoes and I feel very secure in the knowledge that all potatoes offer the same carby satisfaction when I need a potato fix!Continue reading “What’s in a name?”

Girlfriends that call you out on your shit and hold you up through the darkness

 I have a bunch of awesome friends who have held me up through the worst time of my life. They call me out on my bullshit, they tell me when I am being unrealistic, shoot down my pointless dreams. But they built me up, they held me tight through the dark days, they listen toContinue reading “Girlfriends that call you out on your shit and hold you up through the darkness”

7.6b people on planet earth and I could not have one of them just hold me

I had been lonesome for years, but all the noise and chaos of having to work through a breaking marriage never afforded me the time to feel the loneliness. Now here I was, being my own person, I could be who I wanted to be, do what I wanted to do, and yet all IContinue reading “7.6b people on planet earth and I could not have one of them just hold me”

2020, the year we lost time, I found myself

Running is great! I shed 15 kilos and a husband! I walked/ran 3.3 million steps last year. First, I ran to get away from my pain, then I ran to feel the pain, then I ran to get a hit of that endorphin release! Running is like a state of trance, one can move withContinue reading “2020, the year we lost time, I found myself”